I need to rant. I've been keeping quiet, keeping it in, but I just CAN'T anymore!

I'm SO SICK OF EVERYTHING!

ESPESSIALLY MY GOD DAMNED F'ED UP LIFE! STARTING with school! Yeah, most oif it I don't mind. But theres always one person, just one, who decides its fun to piss me off, to watch me flip, to laugh at me when I get angry. Those are the ones I HATE! This year his name is John. He likes to blame me for "Taking his seat."The seat next to his that he used to use for his backpack. He's a fucking jerk. Just today I was talking to Shi about a convo she was involved in, so he says. "Shut up your not in this" and of course.... I turned and said :I'm not talking to you, I'm talking to my FRIEND. Do you REALLY have a PROBLEM with that???" And he turned to this girl and said, RIGHT in fromt of me, "Ha! Look how angry she gets!"

I hate him so much. I wish I could bash his skull in. it'd feel great.

Also, I've been doing a lot of thnking lately.

It's been a year since I dated the creeper.

It's been two years since I got addicted to cutting.

I don't kniw what to do with myself lately.

My mom still fights, even when Ii've been perfect, and My dad...

My dad may have cancer. He did. but he got it removed. But theres always the chance... Theres always the chance it spread. I dont know what I'd do without him, he gets me, no matter how many times he gets drunk... he's my father... I still love him.

Nothing is getting better

Everything is getting worse.